I sit in my dim lighted living room and draw blank thoughts as I sort through the scattered papers on the floor. I come across a crumbled piece of yellow paper folded between two unopened letters. Puzzled by the paper in my hand, I open it and immediately recognize my own handwriting.
I am flooded with memories as I read these words… Read the rest of this entry
My words only seem to cause you more pain. I don’t know how to love you. I want so desperately to know how to make this right and yet I can’t. I’m lost in a world of past pain and regret. Read the rest of this entry
It’s late, and as the clock draws closer to midnight and my eyes grow weary from staring at the documents held in my closet, I come across a picture of us. The photo itself is nothing special, just a collection of black and white images taken from a time when we were lost in love. Read the rest of this entry
I lay alone in what was once our bed. The pain ebbs and flows with the beat of my heart. He’s been gone six months and it feels like six minutes, I miss him with every pore of my body. How can I ever think of another man when I still smell him, still feel his hands on my body? We were perfect together; eating from each others plates, finishing each others sentences, loving each other completely and totally. Read the rest of this entry
Reflecting on recent events, I have found myself comparing the relationships of some of my friends to a game of dominos. Now, I am not talking about the traditional game of dominos, but rather the one where you sit back and watch as the magic happens when each piece touches the other in a continuous game of tag that doesn’t end nor take breaks until the last piece has fallen. Read the rest of this entry
As I took a break from writing I came across this video on youtube and was intrigued by the title “Strangers Again.” At first I thought it was a love song featuring one of my favorite youtube artists, Cathy Nguyen and then learned that it was a short film about a couple struggling with the growing distance in their relationship. The film outlined the various stages that some relationships go through and I will admit that it hit home for me on various levels, which is why I felt the need to share it on my blog. Read the rest of this entry
Personal circumstances leave me distracted at the workplace. As I look at the computer screen attempting to focus on the tasks set before me, I cannot help but think of you and look back upon the conversation that we had the night before.
For so long I told myself that I would no longer become that person who mistrusted you, but as I laid in bed yesterday morning I had this uneasy feeling that forced me from my bed. Read the rest of this entry
I once told an ex-boyfriend, “I will never write a poem about you,” and although writing a poem about your significant other may seem like a romantic gesture, this was considered a good thing because the majority of my poems were about heartbreak and calling out exes on all their bullshit. We smiled; we were in love, and we were blind. I now see that that was the very moment I began to lose myself. It’s been said, compromise is an essential component of a healthy relationship, but how far are you willing to go to keep your partner happy? Read the rest of this entry